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Hello. As it says above, this is not Thaddy writing. This is the person behind Thaddy talking, the heartbroken young girl who misses her love.
I really dont know what to say here, i’ve tried believe me, i just dont have the words to say it.
The news we all recieved yesterday has truly devastated me. I’ve never loved anyone as much as I loved Rheta, and she was the first person RL or SL to show me that love back. I just cant believe Im never going to see her again or talk to her.
Rheta changed my life in so many ways, she was always there for me, she seemed to make everything right. As so many of you know, she fought for everything she thought was right, and would always be there supporting you when you did the same.
Im really struggling, I keep asking myself why could i not be there for her, like she always was for me. I am learning through her non-SL friend Martin that even though he doesnt know much about SL or myself or Rheta for that fact. He knows I loved her, and that she loved me. If this is the case then surely this is more than just a second life, this is life. The feelings are so real, the love, the joy.. the pain and sorrow. I hear she was constantly talking about me in her RL, he tells me so much so he almost got tired of hearing it. Hearing all these things, so nice, what i always wanted, and they’re just making it so much harder. For so long I wondered if she loved me in her real life like i love her, and its devastating to only learn the truth after such tragedy.
I honestly believe that the day I met Rheta Shan was the day i met my soul mate. She was the person put on this planet for me, and I was the same for her. I can only hope I can make her proud while she’s watching over us all, and that she’s waiting for me when my time comes. I’ll never stop wearing her collar, because deep inside i’ll always belong to her, forever and ever.
I love you so much Rheta, forever and ever. Nothing will ever change that. I’ll always be your Sweetie.
A Heartbroken Young Girl from Birmingham, England
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I love you, Thaddibun.
You’re an inspiration.
Comment by Marx May 12, 2009 @ 3:20 pmHugs Thaddy. Thank you for sharing your feelings. We’re all there for you. I think Rheta is too, there inside you, helping you through.
As always, it is an honor and privilege to call you friend.
Comment by Raven Haalan May 12, 2009 @ 3:24 pmI am so so very sorry Thaddy.
Comment by Isle Lunasea May 12, 2009 @ 3:25 pmYou are not alone. She guards you from above, and you have friends down here.
Comment by Peter Stindberg May 12, 2009 @ 3:44 pmI wish I had more to say than “I’m sorry”. I wish I had more to give than my condolences. You are a treasure, my dear, and loved by so many. Let us carry you now.
-Night
Comment by Nightflower May 12, 2009 @ 8:00 pmHugs from Austin TX
Comment by Lizzie Lexington May 15, 2009 @ 5:51 pm[...] This is not Thaddy [...]
Pingback by Rest in Peace, Rheta Shan « Pervasive Games: Theory and Design May 16, 2009 @ 10:16 amI’m so sorry for your loss Thaddy x
Comment by Kitty O'Toole May 16, 2009 @ 11:38 amyes SL is as real as RL. it hurts and it hurts bad.
i’m so sorry.
Comment by Wizard Gynoid May 17, 2009 @ 11:27 amNothing sensible to say. I said what I could this morning.
Be at peace, Thaddy, and I mean that person of whom Thaddy is a big part. Yes it hurts, it will always hurt – but it becomes more bearable with time. SL…RL – I never found the gap. I don’t think it’s there.
Ayesha.
Comment by Ayesha Askham May 24, 2009 @ 8:04 pm